Sunday, July 10, 2016

Writing: Getting It Out



Hello, everyone. I'm back with a little update as to how the writing is going. If you think this post is going to be filled with the joys of writing and the wondrous progress I've made, I'm sorry to disappoint you. Yes, I have been writing, but I would hardly call my progress wondrous. Though, I guess I just did. Twice. Well, let's talk about my actual progress. Shall we?

I've written a few pieces since the last time I've written a post. Some I'm... well I wouldn't say "happy" with, but it's the closest approximation. So I guess I'll have to go with it. And of  course, there are some that need so much more work.

But I feel better.

Wow. That was a weird thing to write. But that doesn't negate the truth behind it. I feel better, despite how horrid I felt when I started writing, creating. It hurt at some points. I was trying to pull the words out of me, to write about experiences that I had thought I put behind me. But I hadn't really forgotten. I had simply numbed them out of existence. And going back to it, trying to write about it, is painful.

As a writer, you suspect that writing is a little bit like surgery. You take a scalpel, and you cut out the more intricate parts of yourself and lay them out for others to view. But instead of a scalpel, imagine a chainsaw, and instead of the most intricate, imagine the most raw and moving. You don't realize it until you're in the midst of it.

I found myself looking for a particular word or sound or feeling and instead found myself moved. My pen would hover millimeters above paper, and all I would want to do is cry.

I did, of course. Though I tried to wait until I was in the privacy of my own home. Or at the very least, my car.

But getting it out helps. It hurts, and it helps.

So, I'm hoping to get a little more written. I'm not yet comfortable putting any of my work out here just yet. But I'm hoping it'll be soon, lovelies. Find me on twitter here. Find me on tumblr here.  Read on. Write often. Wallow in your feelings. I'll see you next time.
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Sunday, June 26, 2016

Why I Write and Haven't Been


Hello, everyone! Long time, no see, and all that. I know that I'm terrible for waiting several months before writing something down and sharing it with the world. I'm sure quite a few of you have given up on me, and if I'm honest, I'd just about given up on myself. I've been feeling a little lost these past few months. Maybe you want to hear about it. Maybe you don't. But I just wanted to warn you of what you're about to put yourself through. 

That's right. The inner musings of a twenty-three year old going to college (again) who loves words but is too guarded to use them. They're tattooed beneath my skin. Forever ingrained as a part of me without anyone being allowed to view them. 

So you know. Lots of fun stuff up ahead. (I can't make anything too serious. So expect some sarcasm as well.)

I find words innately beautiful. It's how we make connections with loved ones. It's how we express ourselves. And yet, I find that people treat words as common, and that leads to their misuse. And then there are the times when our words run away from us, where they misbehave, and I think it's because we don't use them as carefully as we should. Words can destroy and rebuild quicker than any weapon. They can create meaning from nothingness. I fell in love with a man's words before his body, and God damn it if he didn't turn those words from caresses to strikes. And I still craved his words, even as bruises littered my being. 

But that's the thing. As much as they hurt, they can heal. I forgot that. I turned to silence and lost my strength. But I've missed it, like a phantom limb that aches without purpose. Yet here I am. Talking to you. Permitting small pieces of me in hopes of understanding. Why? Because despite everything holding me back, I still need to write. I want that part of me to thrive again, and part of it is because I've read some really moving pieces of literature and poetry that compel me to write. 

In case you're interested, I've been reading Milk and Honey by Rapi Kaur, I Wrote This for You by Iain S. Thomas, and soft magic. by Upile Chisala. All three are books of poetry that spoke to me, one way or another. Here are some poems that have moved me backed to my keyboard, and I hope you find some of your own movement in them. 

neither of us is happy
but neither of us wants to leave
so we keep breaking one another
and calling it love
     
    Milk and Honey - Rapi Kaur

"The Error of Parallax"

The only reason I hate you now is because I loved you then.

     I Wrote This for You  - Iain S. Thomas 

I hope to do with words what dancers do with limbs. 

     soft magic. - Upile Chisala

Each piece of poetry is so simple yet striking. There's depth and beauty, and it was so easy to make connections with these words from strangers. People who have lived their lives so different from me, yet I've seen their souls, something that I don't even see from my closest friends. 

I'm terrified. I'm tightly wound.

But I'm ready. Cut my strings. Unleash me and my greatness.

I need this. 

So I hope all of you are okay with some random writing posts coming up. Enjoy some literature nourishment. Read some poetry. Find your favorite book and read until 4 a.m. telling yourself "Just one more page." Come up for air. Repeat. Love you. Mean it. 


Enough of my inner musings, for now at least. Check out my tumblr here, and find me on twitter here. I won't say when I'll "see" you again because it will most likely be a lie. But I will be back, rest assured, and I hope your lives are filled with meaning. I'll see you next time. 
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Friday, February 19, 2016

Updates: What's Been Happening!



Hello, everyone! I'm back, and I'm here to do a quick update! Things have been picking up again. I've been pulling weird shifts that have me up at odd hours, but I've been trying to pick up extra naps here and there. I've just been recommended a book that I really want to share with y'all, so be on the look out for a special post later this month.

I'm still trying my best to keep up with Shadowhunters, despite its flaws. I have watched the latest episode and have taken notes, but it may be a hot minute before I can write a review because, that's right, I'll be working the entire weekend.

On a more positive note, I did make some time to go see How to Be Single, which turned out to be a pretty good movie. I went with my roommate, and I have to say that its a good girlfriend movie. You know, the type of movie you bring all of your friends that happen to be female to. I might even see it again with my mama. We'll see.

I'm starting my observation period next week. So wish me luck! My cooperating teacher seems really nice and knows how to handle a classroom. I can't wait to learn more about teaching from her. Fingers crossed!

That's it for this post! Comment down below with what's been going on with your life! Subscribe to the blog by adding your email address to the Subscribe Box down below or off to the right. Add me to your circles by clicking the Google+ Button on you right. Follow me on twitter @KK_Donna_Blog for up to date information on the blog and ridiculousness about my life. Follow the tumblr dedicated to the blog which you can find at this link. Read on, lovelies! I'll see y'all next post!
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Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Shadowhunters Episode 5: "Moo Shu to Go" - Review!


Hello, everyone! I'm back, and I'm here to review the fifth episode of Shadowhunters, "Moo Shu to Go." While trying to scope out some clues on her mother's hidden past, Clary and Simon get kidnapped for the illusive Mortal Cup. No thanks to Alec. Meanwhile, Jace and Isabelle try to discover what happened to the Seelie scouts after Maryse Lightwood, mother to Alec and Isabelle, shows up unannounced to the Institute. Now, we are getting into spoiler territory, and if you haven't seen the episode yet, turn back now! Otherwise, let's get onto the review! 

So here's the episode were the werewolves finally make an appearance. No hiding behind dumpsters and coming out bloody for no apparent reason. Just full-on werewolf action. We learn that there is a pack in Brooklyn, and, guess what, they want the Mortal Cup just like everyone else. That part doesn't really bother me considering we've now established that the Cup is basically a McGuffin for the season. I had some logistic problems with the transformations. The show has made a big deal about hiding the transformation, even if we've already seen the wolves, which is what I thought would be the big reveal. I mean, a wolf walks into a restaurant all nonchalant through a doggy door, but don't even get me started on that), but they have to transform in the back? It just seems weird considering they look normal when they change back. They're not missing clothes or anything. So what would be the reason to hide, except maybe to cut costs on the CGI effects. 

We also see Simon with enhanced physical skills, to the point where maybe someone should be concerned. Maybe if he was just jumping a little higher or running a little faster, the other characters could assume that he's been pumping some iron. Maybe trying to bulk up so that he won't be repeatedly kidnapped. But he breaks open a door without any effort at all. At that point, everyone should have been a little more concerned. Forget the memento box, Simon is crushing doorknobs with his bare hands. Maybe we should check him out. No? Box is more important? Okay, then. On the plus side, still hilarious and fun to watch. He's one of the better characters on the show, as I've said before, and he doesn't disappoint. 

So, Maryse Lightwood is pretty terrible, as a mother anyway. The amount of blatant favoritism was nauseating. I'm all for showing the disconnect between the Lightwood's, but I don't think Maryse needs to be openly grinning Cheshire-style while Jace is swinging his seraph blade around.

Wow, that amount of double entendre is inexcusable... But I'm keeping it. 

There was just no subtly to it, and I feel like that the producers think that the audience is stupid...again. This has become a common complaint with this show, and I'm just hoping that if they do get a second season, they'll treat us like an audience that cares enough to pay attention and think.

On the other hand, there were a few moments enjoyment in the episode. I know a lot of people have been saying it, but I have to agree that the chemistry between Clary and Jace isn't working so far. They just seem to be these weird two people who hover around each other making inappropriate comments because they don't know each other that well. With that said, the dynamic between Clary and Alec is hilarious. Maybe it's because Alec is 100% done with all of the tomfoolery that Alec is starting to feel like the substitute for the audience (or at least me) in the show. Between that and Clary determination to underhand him, it makes up for some of the other less fortunate points of the show. The way that they bounce off of one another is just so real and organic, and I'm hoping to see a lot more of it. 

I really enjoyed Luke in this episode. Maybe it's because he's more than just an ominous figure now, but I'm liking his attitude. The snarky exchange that happens between him and Clary when he gets her out of the cargo container was beautiful and so funny. I'm guessing we're going to be seeing some more of him in the next episode at casa de la Magnus, which I'm also excited to see. 

Guys, I think that I'm actually looking forward to the next episode! Let's hope it's a step in the right direction! I'll be sure to watch and review it as soon as possible!

That's it for this post! Comment down below with your thoughts on the episode. Subscribe to the blog by adding your email address to the Subscribe Box down below or off to the right. Add me to your circles by clicking the Google+ Button on you right. Follow me on twitter @KK_Donna_Blog for up to date information on the blog and ridiculousness about my life. Follow the tumblr dedicated to the blog which you can find at this link. Read on, lovelies! I'll see y'all next post!
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Monday, February 8, 2016

Shadowhunters Episode 4: "Raising Hell" - Review!



Hello, everyone! I'm back, and I'm here to review the fourth episode of Shadowhunters, "Raising Hell." Just in case you weren't aware, this review is going to be heavy with spoilers, and if you rather not know what happens, don't read this review! With that in mind, let's get started!

In this episode, we get a better introduction for Magnus Bane, the High Warlock of Brooklyn who stole Clary's memories and feed them to a memory demon. He's a very flamboyant, confident, but caring character. He tries to congregate all of the warlocks to a safe house in order to protect them, which says a great deal about his character. But sometimes, he takes it a bit too far.

The part where Clary "saves" a warlock child because it's the right thing and not out of a sense of duty is probably one of the most ridiculous conversations. Like, we saw everything that just happened! We can figure some of the emotions behind the scenes, if you give us an opportunity. I feel like that they think the audience is stupid or they didn't want to put enough effort into making the scenes more dynamic rather than relying on a crappy script.

In case you haven't noticed, I'm losing a lot of faith in the show.

There are a few logistic problems that came up in the episode. For example, they hype up all of the demons and their powers and how incredibly dangerous they are, and then all you need to do to defeat them is a seraph blade stab to any part of their body. You don't need to have any training at that point (clearly, look at Clary Fray) and it undervalues any kill that legit shadowhunters make. It drives me bonkers.

Another logistic problem is Clary's necklace. We haven't set up any rules for the necklace, and it just seems to be able to do whatever is convenient at the time. For instance, Clary can see Dot in danger, but Dot isn't able to communicate with Clary. Yet in this episode, Valentine makes a direct threat to Clary while she uses it to see her mother. And why do we not see her use it more often so that she can get some clues to her mother's whereabouts. It makes no sense!

Also, by giving Clary more strength than she should at this point, it's taking away some of the effects of the other characters. Magnus is the High Warlock of Brooklyn, and he can't kill one Circle Member. Yet Clary can kill a greater demon with zero help. It's just so weird and unrealistic. Yes, I'm using "unrealistic" for a show that features demons and angels, but you catch my drift.

Then there are just some ridiculous scenes because they are taking themselves too seriously. The is a scene where they are trying to find Magnus, but Jace can't do it alone. So they use parabatai power, like they're the Wonder Twins or something, to find Magnus. It looks so ridiculous. I cannot even tell you. If they made into more of a joke, then it may have been more, I don't know, watchable, but it ended up being a joke on them.

Guys, I don't know what else to say. I do plan on watching the rest of the series, but I definitely have my worries. I'm just glad that they're getting enough good ratings that they'll have a chance to fix some problems in season two. This is if season two comes to fruition.

Well, that's it for this post! Comment down below with some of your thoughts on the episode! Subscribe to the blog by adding your email address to the Subscribe Box down below or off to the right. Add me to your circles by clicking the Google+ Button on you right. Follow me on twitter @KK_Donna_Blog for up to date information on the blog and ridiculousness about my life. Follow the tumblr dedicated to the blog which you can find at this link. Read on, lovelies! I'll see y'all next post!
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Saturday, February 6, 2016

Update - Feeling Like an Adult



Hello, everyone! I'm back, and I'm here to give an update. Things have been a bit crazy this past month. Maybe it's just my own emotional turmoil holding me back. Maybe I just feel like not growing up quite just yet. Either way, it's thrown my mind into a tailspin that I have yet to come completely out of. I feel... I don't know how I feel. Confused, probably. I can't articulate anything anymore, which is really unpleasant.

I don't even know why I'm putting this out here. I just want to yell and whisper and curl up into a ball and everything just feels wrong. Ugh, I'm started to sound ridiculous. I just wanted to say that I'm going to get back on schedule. It's good for me and for the readers who are hanging in there for me.

I've gotten some help from friends and family and a wonderful community that is willing to piece me back together. I hope to be on a better page with y'all soon.

That's it for this post! Comment down below with whatever you're feeling now. Subscribe to the blog by adding your email address to the Subscribe Box down below or off to the right. Add me to your circles by clicking the Google+ Button on you right. Follow me on twitter @KK_Donna_Blog for up to date information on the blog and ridiculousness about my life. Follow the tumblr dedicated to the blog which you can find at this link. Read on, lovelies! I'll see y'all next post!
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Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Shadowhunters Episode 3: "Dead Man's Party" - Review!


Hello, everyone! I'm back, and I'm here to review the third episode of Shadowhunters, "Dead Man's Party." Yes, this review is extremely late, and I'm hoping to tell y'all why in a later post, but I felt that I should review this episode before the next one tomorrow. This review is not going to be spoiler-free, and you don't want to know what's happened, don't read! With that in mind, let's get this review started!

So the last episode ended with Simon's kidnapping perpetrated by a couple of vampires while Clary was discovering some of the truth about her past. "Dead Man's Party" continues with the gang coming up with a plan to get Simon back without anyone finding out.

Let me just say this, none of the conversations are getting better. No matter who is talking, everything just feels forced, awkward, and not natural. There's a whole subplot with Jace and Alec having an argument, and there wasn't a minute where I believed it. And some of the lines are just so weird or cliche that it comes across as them not trying.

Speaking of cliches, the scene where Jace is showing Clary how to use a seraph blade just comes across as tacky, not sensual or whatever it was trying to be. All of the fighting lessons he could have taught her before hitting up the lair of a vampire coven and he chooses to show her how to swing it back and forth. The logic behind it doesn't make any sense, which brings me to my next point. 

I don't understand why Jace and Clary went to a vampire bar to get a motorcycle that is not even used after they get it. They got themselves into trouble for no other apparent reason than to get a motorcycle that we never see again! There's not even a real sense of urgency to get to Simon. I could see them getting the bike to get to Simon quicker, but it doesn't see like they're in any hurry to help Simon. But I digress. 

Another aspect that didn't make any sense was Camille barking orders over the telephone. Where does the call connect? Does it even connect? Is there someone by the phone or did someone in SFX forget to put in a telephone ring? Or does the phone connect to a speaker system? Whatever it may be, it was definitely not explained. 

I did like the new vampire characters. Despite a few weird lines and awkward actions, we've got some new interesting characters with different motives and loyalties. In the movie, they were more mindless and a boogie man in the night, but in the show they are real characters, which gives me some kind of hope for upcoming episodes. 

Well, that's it for this post! Comment down below with your thoughts on the episode! Subscribe to the blog by adding your email address to the Subscribe Box down below or off to the right. Add me to your circles by clicking the Google+ Button on you right. Follow me on twitter @KK_Donna_Blog for up to date information on the blog and ridiculousness about my life. Follow the tumblr dedicated to the blog which you can find at this link. Read on, lovelies! I'll see y'all next post!
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